Throw your hands up.

Dancing around the room makes me feel alive....

So there's this bug that keeps on flying onto my screen. I am so annoyed right now. Just when you think you've killed it BAM it strikes again with more aggression. It never learns it's lesson it just keeps on pursuing the light. That persistent bug. Now this bug scenario, as random and as common as it is, reminds me of a similar situation. A persistent, annoying thought that keeps on coming back. I think it will always be there. No matter how hard I try, I can't fight it, I'll never truly be happy, truly self contented.

A wavering self-confidence I can be as high as a kite and as low as the molten rock within the earth's crust. With this also comes a failed self-image. Body issues. It strikes again. Maybe I am selfish as some people have called me...and this whole thing is just some self absorbed stage, whatever it is, it's based on my perception of what other people see...

I don't understand how people can be truly contented.