If someone were to ask me, "If there was something you could talk about non-stop forever, what would it be?" I would simply answer "Him".
I am so happy right now, I finally know what it means to be perfectly contented. Money rolling in from two jobs, another short film to be done, another appearance to make, marks more than satisfactory, friends and family harmonized, body issues fading....and yes...him.
I don't care what you call it "lust", "love", I have realised that it really doesn't matter, its just how you feel right now that counts. You can't place it under some pretentious social label, you can't analyse it or criticize it. It just is. And that's what I love about it. The fact that I can just feel for once.
I'm the type of person to over-analyse everthing under the sun, especially when it comes to my intimate feelings, always backtracking and wondering if it feels 'right' or if its too much for the person, basically trying to morph my feelings to match the other persons. It really doesn't work. So I decided to take a risk and go for it, just feel and live in the moment without checking to see whether it was right or whether it was wrong.
...It works. Utterly and completely. I am happy and discovering many amazing things about, not only myself, but another human being, in the most lovely, beautiful way. Call me an over-romantic, love-sick girl. Meh, I'll just call you a cynic. ^_^
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- A bit of a psycho. I like to observe the happenings of the world and my small inner world and comment on them. Thus a blog of sorts.
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Call me a cynic cause its true. Love is hard to find and even harder to hold onto. I never could imagine living in the moment cause those same moments suck me up only to spit me out all torn and tattered.
ReplyDeleteFor a moment i envied you, but in MY life i know better. Good luck!